Coming out AGAIN
Oh the horrors of having to come out a second time. I thought ah yes, I am 14 years old, I like girls, and girls are meant to like boys so I am bisexual! → → → Confused as to why I keep failing my male partners and thinking i need to work on my attachment and take supplements for my sex drive → → → 8 years later still feeling broken after multiple long term relationships that I struggle to maintain and feel like an awful person → → → asking someone for advice on how they manage the transactional nature of relationships (sex for stability) and they look at me like I am insane → → → circling back to 14 year old me taking am I gay quizzes? but with 10X the panic.
Anyway all that to say it turns out I wasn't broken. I still feel kinda broken, but I also have years of ~religious and societal conditioning~ to undo. Realising I am a lesbian was NOT ON MY 2026 BINGO CARD. In fact I think it is full now. No more bingo. Enough discoveries for one year thanks.
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